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2009-05-28T22:35:00.002+12:45

wad am i thinkin.... It has all been goin well until i got drunk and started txtin again..... haiii

i admit it that im so dumb wen it comes to relationships and shit.... All i need now is a good vacation where im wif my beloved family.... I cant wait till i actually get to melbourne where i can actually forget bout those that i cant forget......

This reminds me of last yr wen i went to melbourne all heart broken and in exchange i came back wif a bag of brand new clothes instead hahaha well at least it help me forgat that bastard lol haiii.... Y am i so dumb?? I wish theres a pill in the world that actually makes me look tgrough things better and not get hurt...

Rem

2009-05-21T02:48:00.002+12:45

babes i know i haven blog for a long time... and now im startin again....

been quite busy lately..... fashion shows comin up in about a few days and im screwed if i dun get it rite tmr... wish i have more time to do more stuff but i really casnt be bothered now...

since ive been overseas.... i realli miss u guys... i thought that no one bothers to read my blog thwats y i din blog lol but oh wells now that son tells me she read my blog and ask me to update ill do it hehehe...

lets see ji min is in korea... ellie karin clare and aruna is in london..... son is in melb.... maddie goin to america..... nan still in kl.... and im in new zealand..... i guess all of us have been hardcore partyin but guy.... if u see this contact me or go on msn cause I HAVEN TALK TO U GUYS IN AGES AND I MISS U GUYSSSSS HEAPPPPSSSSS

rmb those days wen we usd to hang out 24/7 laugh cry study sulk talk together??? i realli missed those times..... i wish we could go back to those times but now that we are all over the world it would be realli hard...... everyone is either partyin hardcore... or livin their sweet lifes wif their bfs..... babes.... stop those hardcore partyin and sweet lovey dovey times wif ur bfs and go on more hahahahaha

i know i know im a sad ass stuck in a sad asss city lol babes im just realli goin out of my mind rite now.....

2008-11-30T00:32:00.003+13:45

Just realised i haven been bloggin for a long time while goin through some fren's blog.... thx to maddie and her new blog i decided to continue bloggin as i dun even have anything to do at all!!!!! hahaha the last time i blog was june such a long time ago...

hahaha back in june i was still sad bout "u know" but now im living my life to the most but theres one obstacle..... HOW DA FCK CAN I LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST WEN IM IN A FREAKIN BORIN PLACE CALL NEW ZEALAND, WHERE SHEEPS HAVE MORE POPULATION DEN HUMAN.....=.="

hmmm lets see wads happening during this period of time... NOTHIN...
one thing for sure! I PASSED FIRST YR HEHE.... one more yr to go den ill have a big fat holiday and start workin!!! NOOOO >.<

i wanna go back to kl rite this momment!!!!!! i really cant stand being in stupid NZ nemore!!!! lets see wad caryn yap is doin on a sat nite? hmmm shes sitting infront of her comp bloggin HOW SAD CAN I BE? ARGHHHH

damnn ill just upload some pics for now to keep me busy hehe

I MADE THIS HEHE>.<

2008-06-28T03:26:00.002+12:45

damn it wat kind of month is june!?!?! its such a bad month hahahaha ok today i just realise that wat a dick my ex is. HE IS A TOTAL DICK/BEASTARD/ASSHOLE OMG I CANT EVEN BELIEVE THAT I WENT OUT WIF HIM!!! omgg that fuckin asshole i tell u whoever who ever goes out wif him is just an idiot hHAHHA just like myself but wateva!!!! ok im a little high now as i just came back from drinkin!!!! gonna go sleep now hehehe

2008-06-20T01:19:00.003+12:45

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!! i dun get any holidays this yr WTF MAN!!!!!! this is so unfair stupid schoo....

welll basically, i finish my first yr on oct 31st and i thot that second yr starts on end of jan next yr therefore i get like 3 months off... BUT NOOOOOOOO stupid second yr starts on nov the 3rd this yr which means i dun get to go back till next august!!!!!!!! IM SO SAD!!!!!! I DUN GET TO GO BACK TO KL FOR ANGPAO CHRISTMAS AND SEE EVERYONE THERE AND GUESS WAT.... EVERYONE IS GOIN AWAY THIS YR AND IT MIGHT BE MY LAST CHANCE TO SEE THEM T.T THIS IS SO SAD!!!!!!!
at least i get to go home early next yr... nothin much i can do T.T

sooo i went to did a learner's theory test today.... when i only studied for it within 20 mins..... JENG JENG JENG.... I FAILED T.T !!!! but den im goin for a resit tmr hopefully i will pass with dunno how long of studying... hahahah i actually finished all the questions behind the book and the best thing is the answers are actually reference from the book!!!! stupid idiotic kiwi ppl brainless haahahaha

oh and guess wat!!!!!!!!! i did an eye test before sittin the test and the fuckin words were soooooo TINY THAT I CANT READ IT !!!!!!! whoever that can reads it = eyesight 100% perfect fine!!!! haiii wtf man i cant even read a single word in the stupid thingy damn it!!! anyways thats about it today hehe

will upload some pics hehe

2008-06-10T17:43:00.003+12:45

hahaha wtf... all i can say is wtf...
woke up early today to got to school but guess wad? school doesnt start till 1pm... so me and my frens went shoppin hehe.. oh and yes my mum says she will get me new clothes hahahaahahaha...

went starbucks as there is stll time left before class starts.... and a bird flu into the shop hahahah wtf man... went to class after that and it was BORING!!!
Went to get dinner take away at mc donalds after school.

caught a bus rite on time but n0ooooo she said i cant bring a drink on the bus... and she asked me to throw it away. wtf no way am i gonna throw my coke away so i got my money back and got off the bus and waited for the next bus. BTW THE DRIVER IS A KIWI WOMEN...BITCH!!!! next bus was 3 mins away so din have to wait for a long time and this time the bus driver din even mention bout my drink stupid idiot!!! got home and here i am blogging ahahahaha... gonna go dancing class later hehe so goonna go shower now.

2008-06-09T22:13:00.002+12:45

today was a hectic day.. haha i broke up wif my boyfreind. well he is considered ex now. Not that sad about it actually hehe.

Most importantly, i can fit a freakin size 10 now hahahaha so happy about that haha!!^~^

lets see i woke up today talk to ex and den decided to break up.
Went to school after that and guess wad there was onli 4 ppl in school =.= sooo surfed the net and read bout horoscopes and looked at some on9 shoppin.
Went to my next class and fuck! i din pass my history assignment... BECAUSE I COPY AND PASTE FROM THE NET! wtf im not gonna write a 10 page essay!!!! thats just dumb hahahaha anyways have to redo it damnn... hahaha but i got out of class earl and went back surfin the net. den went shoppin bought some stuff den went home.
Got home and guess who i saw my ex. PRETENDIN NOTHIN HAPPENED!! THAT BASTARD hahahaha but wateva got burger king for dinner den realised.... jeng jeng jeng....
I DUN HAVE ENOUGH CASH FOR BUS FAIR TMR AND MY BUS CARD RAN OUT OF CREDIT ALL I HAVE IS A STUPID EFTPOST CARD WHICH WOULD HELP AT ALL AHHHHHH WAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!?!??!?! DAMN IT ILL FIND A WAY HAIII.....>.<

hectic day of mine ...

2008-06-09T01:17:00.002+12:45

hmmm haven been bloggin for ages nw and here i am bloggin.

So i moved out of my cousin's house and moved into my fren's house. Its really fun stayin wif them. Well i fink im better off here.

Started off my day by wakin up at 3 or 4pm. well i played this computer game from 6 pm to 3 am yesterday before i went to bed. had this chinese restaurent which was good but bloody expensive it was 18 NZD damn it hahahaha den i got home went on9 talk to sonia changed my blog skin and decided to blog. BUT NOOOOO the first skin i chose did not work out rite so wth i have to redo it again. STUPID IDIOT WHO DIN KNOW HOW TO GET THE THING RITE!!! gave up half way and started to talk/webcam wif sonia. oh and guess wad i had my dinner just now at 11 pm. hahahah oh and i cooked chicken turned out it didnt taste bad hahahah luckily its taste alrite hahaha. im just so pissed off today because of some one AHHHHH JUST PISS ME OFF TILL THE LIMIT!!!! STUPID IDIOT!!! im so tired now and i have to freakin get up early tmr morning for school damn it hahahahah ok damn it gonna go sleep now its like 1 am haiii IM PISSED OFF AND IM OFF TO SLEEP !!! THAT BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-21T00:24:00.000+12:45

hi ppl.... hmmm dun fink ppl actually read my blog but who cares its a way to tell the world how i feel LOL

abeen readin some ppl's blog lately... i found out that a lot of ppl have changed... not in a bad way though but they will be definitly different from the last time i left kl....they all basically have their own life... living it their own way.... and i fink ive changed too so hopefully we will still be the same wen we r back together even if we r not we will still get along hahah...

so i have made the choice to go to melbourne... but not 100%.... i fink i have made the choice to go to melbourne but the reason im not sureits because im afraaid of facing new people... the new enviroment and most importantly would i get to have frens that are as nice as the ones i have in NZ? i know they would prefer me not going but i dun fink i can continue living wif my cousin....

its not that i hate her or anyting... we can be real good cousins but the thing is i cannot live under the same roof wif her its just fustrating...

alot of people i ask would they prefer melbourne or christchurch... 80% told me melbourne... well in the end its up to me to decide not them so i really dun know... but one thing for sure is i would want to live somewhere where i would be happy... i dun wan to end up sad n disappointed and regrad the decision i have made... its good enough to have my mom lettin me decide even though she has pressurize me by tellin me whereever i go i have to stay wif family...

oh wells i guess i just have to think bout it real seriously before i decide it would not be another irrational decision that i made one and a half yesr ago... i mean i would love to be independent and not keep relaying on my family... which i fink that would most possibly happen in melbourne as my bro always relay on me and not me relaying on him ...

oh wells,,, i just have to think it through now hopefully i will make the rite decision! good luck to me>.<

fuck fuck fuck exams r in 2 months time ... may be a bit more but i have no idea wat physics about... fuck y did i even bother takin that subject!?!?! im screwed!!!! ahhh i fink im gonna fail physics... its the onli subject that im worried about rite now .... i have confidence i will pass the other 4 but physics i really dun know!!! i guess ill just try my best.... haiiii

looking for someone to share my feelins T.T

2007-08-23T21:44:00.000+12:45

so im in my frens house bloggin again...

guys my fren got a new dog it is considered mine as well hahaha.... even though it is a huskey mix labour dog, it is very cute it doesnt look like shit ok!!!! and we named it .... koogo hahahah which in chinese means cool dog hahaha cool rite LOL .... lame i know but u know its so fuckin obedient!!!! hmmm forgot if i told u guys on my last post but who cares hahahah

din go to class today was actually gonna go but u know i woke up at 8 and i told my self ok 10 more mins and the next thing i realize it was already 9.10 besides i only have 2 class stats and calc so i just din go hahhah cant wait till firday or the last day of school 14th sept hahaha i have a 3 weeks holiday LOL ok i know u guys r like havin summer holiday now wateva my summer is in december hahah so i will have holidays wen u sad asses are in school studyin he he cant wait to come back 3 more months hahahah man time passes so fast

so wat are u guys up to lately? hows everythin anything new tag me to tell me LOL got to ciao now luv ya all

2007-08-19T00:02:00.000+12:45

ok so here i am bloggin again due to boredness in my frens house.... they r playin some racin game hmmm.... so i read son's blog dude u passed and poor ellie only passes lit so i assume she s screwed by her parents and me i failed one of my calc internal trig well fuck that dun care bout it hahahah

so where have caryn been.... in NZ duh (lame i know) its like so fuckin borin here i cant wait to get back in kl oh btw guys my drivin skill has improved A LOT and i mean it u guys should trust me so get in the car if i am drivin... lol and basically always out every nite hate my house
i wanna move out so badly next yr but my mom disapprove so i guess i will move out get a job to pay my rent -Caryn's sad life/ plan and hopefully i will win lotto if i can get heaps of money and that would cover my rent and liets see get a flashy car couple of house and u know can belanjar u guys for a trip cause the price it like fuckin one billion LOL

so u guys better hope that i win that pricde soon LOL hmmm... comtinuation of caryn‘s sad life so wat else is happenin oh rite still no bf still single well FUCK THAT now that i fink of it my life is really really really sad wheres my bitches to spicde up my life oh i know they r all in kl wen caryn yap is ALL THE WAY IN NZ haiiii

let see 3 more months and im back hey u guys dun fink that if im not here for my b day u guys dun need to buy me pressies ok i still wan my pressies and i gave u guys extra one month to think of wat to buy me LOL hahah and of course if u but me ill buy u if not tooo bad no pressie for u!!!! hahahaha

so any new news??? tell me la u know im all outdated here so better update me or u guys will think that caryn is a lame ass and i dun want that LOL ok la i fink im done for today hahaha

luv u guys!!!!!! muax muax muax and im not on weed or anythin just high！！！ LOL

2007-08-15T22:13:00.000+12:45

hey guys haven been bloggin for a long long long time so yeh

so i had my holidays and like my cuz tara came so fun hahha i went sking and we r almost gonna sky dive but too late not enough time so din get to go hahahah so funny we went sking and wen i finally get to know how to ski a bit my cuz crash into me and like we got tangled and there was this pervert among my cuz's frens hahahah and like wen we got tangled, the perv came runnun to us for help and my fren was like fast perverts comin hahah and like we untagled ourself in just 3 seconds wen we try to untangle ourself for like 15 min and din get successful LOL

and like now wtf everyone of my fren had a bf or gf and now im the onli one left still single they even broke up or some still together fuck man im so lame hahah still no bf haiii but nvm caryn hahahhaa LOL

how r u guys man miss me hehe!!! i miss u guys too will talk to u soon luv ya babes he he ttyl

2007-06-25T21:09:00.000+12:45

ahhhlast week of school and i din go school for the whole day today .... was fuckin tired hahahaha.... man i tell u the 2 cats is so fuckin annoyin wen i was sleepin

at like 5 or 6 in the mornin the big cat came into my room to sleep thats alrite la den the little cat followed and they were kinda fightin on my bed and i have to practically kick them off my bed to sleep

as usual, my alram clock rang and i tole myself oh since i dun have first period i can take my own sweet time to sleep and slowly get up i will surely get up at 9 to get ready for school and wat happen? i woke up at 10 instead missed my frist class... nvm den i kinda miss my second class again and i kinda screw it and din go to school for the whole day day haiii i went to bed instead hahahah .... man my habits still haven change a bit .... i need my mom as my alarm clock shes so consistent hahahah. comin in my troom every 5 min to wake me up and mostly i would pretend to be awake and go back to sleep and always be late to school!!! and that have not change a bit im late to school almost everyday hahahah

so yes it is very borin here and the little cat is on my lap now playin wif my head phone haiii so naughty!!! oh btw ppl i got a new laptop its cool and not cool at the same time LOL hahahah thats so weird man.... i just realised i haven updated for a very long time .... dun think a lot of ppl come to read my blog anyways... i guess thats it for now will upodate sooon but wont promiss ahahaha

2007-05-20T04:49:00.000+12:45

just been browsing through facebook just now... saw some of my old picture... i realise i changed heaps!!! from innocent to bad fat to fatter to skinnier to skinner hahaha... but most of all i fink my personality changed a lot too... sometimes i wish that i can be old me that doesnt think so much and do so much... but somethings has happen that has change me and thats teh fact cant really go back anymore... is hu man just selfish? they always want somethin that they cant get... so time i think im a bitch like a serious one... dunno... hmmm... may be its just me that is thinkin too much... really dunno...

heard a justin timberlake song in my frens car just now while he is sendin me home... dunno the name of the song but wat it says make me realise im stuck in the middle of no where... i have no goal, no opinion, and i have no idea wat i can do wif my life anymore... im stuck in the middle of no where dunno where my path is... im really lost... can anyone help me out here? im just so lost that i dun even ta;lk much these days... everytime i go out wif some of my frens they would say " hey caryn, why r u so quiet today?" is it because im still lost findin the right me or is it that i have found it but i just haven realise it yet... im really lost...

its just me and my depression now.... may be it will take a while for me to find my path in life... guess i have to find it my self ...

gonna go sleep now >.<

2007-05-11T23:29:00.000+12:45

hey guys haven been bloggin for so long.... well i went back to malaysia and surprise all of my frens LOL hahahah... i was in KL for 3 weeks eatin my ass off and i gan 3 kg T.T bu wait wait wait.... I GREW TALLER HAHAHAHAHAHAH..... well i moved to the new house .... load of spider i got one big bite on my leg hai... but the weather is like way colder den malaysia lovein it... so wat have u guys been up to tag me ... update me....

maddie u got the same finge as me .... well u copy cat!!! lol hahaha jk jk well anyways im like at the other side of the world so who cares... he he

life is so borin nothin to do in NZ FUCKIN BORED.... not to miention im broke lets see i have 25 dollor to survive till june how am i gonna survive??? damn it haizzz.... was fuckin high last nite dunno y i started to immitate some of my family members to my cuz and we were just liaghin our asses off well wat can i say... things u do wen ur bored .... well that all for now

2007-04-02T11:42:00.000+12:45

hey guys happy belated april's fool lol hahahha... so did any of u prank anyone? hahaha i prank like so many people lol onli one din fal for it hahahah.... well i forgot that it was aprils fool till one of my frens prank me and she prank me wif the lasmest thing u can ever think of hahahha and that will be .... some one gave flowers to one of ur frens and blar blar blar u know wats gonna happen next rite hahahaha who doesnt?? hahaha and one more thing a pinch and a punch for the second day of the month as i missed the first day lol ....
im in school now bored to death.... just have chapel damn boring plus before that i have my calc practise test omg i fink im gonna fail damn i have to study hard like extra had for the actual one on wednesday and on thursday is my last day of school and im gonna have a one month of holiday lol hahahha so happy but the sad part is ... wat am i gonna do wen i have all the free time ... i cant go back malaysia ... damn air ticket too expensive... any one willing to pay? hehe ill love u if u pay for me ill love u lol .... hahah of course no one is gonna do that damn u all LOL hahahhaa hmmm so so so bored lets see if anything interestig happen besides me gonna fail my calc practise test hmmmm??? oh on sat my frens and i went to an outing wif a rich ass boy school hahahha shit man they r so fuckin rich like no joke man one of them even wear Dolce & Galbana omg and owns a damn nice car and lv purse rich rich rich damn them so rich give me some money to buy a ticket back to malaysia... lol fuckin broke these days damn it lol ....

2007-03-26T12:02:00.000+12:45

hmmm.. this weekend have been quite fun but i have been studying my ass off too damn i have like fuckin exams next week damn it have to pass and im gonna like stuy my ass off to pass man especially for fuckin calculas fuck shouldnt have took it in the first place damn it fuckin hard !!!! anyways im having a free period now LOL and im like so damn bored rite now nothin to do oh b tw im pickin up piano again LOL gonna start playing again hehe damn i prefer studying in gis so much m ore relax and all u have to do is wen exam is near study ur ass off and pass but here we have to like be consisten damn it !!!! fuck i hate studying LOL butwat can i do.... damn it i hope uni comes quickly cant stand it anymore damn it LOL hahahhaha

let see wat i did this weekend oh yeh i went karaoke drank on an empty stomach =.= got kinda drunk LOL help my poor fren alot by lossin in the game alot =.= she so dumb she keep yelling numbers and im just like nooo if i open now she ll lose so i yell and the guy next to me say open and i have to drink fuck hahahaha but den its all good quite borin man my weekend hmmm let me go check ur blogs out den fuckin hell LOL

2007-03-17T23:45:00.000+13:45

夜的色彩有点乱
车的速度有点慢
红灯绿灯一闪一闪陌生人走过了圆环
球场边的啤酒罐
高楼下的路边摊
这是一个无声夜晚做什么都没人管
我看着四面八方看见一些孤单的雕像
我看着大街小巷看见一种颓废的浪漫
看着玻璃橱窗看见一堆流星的幻像
用一双眼去欣赏我的一个人的美术馆

夜的色彩有点乱
车的速度有点慢
红灯绿灯一闪一闪陌生人走过了圆环
球场边的啤酒罐
高楼下的路边摊
这是一个无声夜晚做什么都没人管
我看着四面八方看见一些孤单的雕像
我看着大街小巷看见一种颓废的浪漫
看着玻璃橱窗看见一堆流星的幻像
用一双眼去欣赏我的一个人的美术馆

城市里的残酷美丽看也看不完
忽然间我的眼睛流了一滴汗
我看着四面八方看见一些孤单的雕像
我看着大街小巷看见一种颓废的浪漫
看着玻璃橱窗看见一堆流星的幻像
用一双眼去欣赏我的一个人的美术馆

2007-03-13T21:43:00.000+13:45

im late for class again today!!! damn... u guys know how im alaways late for class in malaysia rite!!! but that was at 7 40 but i still is late hai yo!!!! and the tutor class here stats at 8 25 but i still cant get up hmmm... my alarm clock always ring at 7 and everytime ill turn it off and tell my self 30 min more den ill fall back to sleep but today instead of 30 min i slept for one and a half hour not funny i was so late for class some more its a scary calc class scary teacher no one likes her! hahah btw everyone failed her test cept for just one person who just passed hahaha... back to the story ok yesterdays weather was fuckin hot like wat 29 degress almost killed my self and today it was wat 14 degress wtf its drop 15 degrees in just one day shitty weather hai.. and u know how u like to cuddle in ur blanket to find warmness wen its really cold and in the mornin u just dun wanna wake up rite! thats wat happen to me hai... i admit i love sleeping hmmm... haven been blogging for a while now besides in NZ im like bored so mind as well also i saw so many ppl's blog recently and it reminded my how long i haven blog so here i am!!! so let see wat else happen today...??? hmmm nothin much just that i am watching scary movie one now hahaha so... ill blog tmr !!!^_^

2007-03-12T09:40:00.000+13:45

wat i do wen i have free period in school lame rite but who cares theres like build in web cam in thee flashy comps hahaha

2007-03-06T12:19:00.000+13:45

hey ppl havent been bloggin for a long long time now ... so im back in New zealand!! the most boring place u can find me at... well may be not that boring hhahah... but sometime it can be quite borin hahah....ok quit wif the borin or not borin... so in july ill be visiti melbourne LOL seeing my cousins and brother hahahah have to save some money now damn im such a spender any ways i just got a new CK sunglass hahahah so damn nice ok !!!! i fell in love wif it could resist not getting it !!!! hahah so how r u guys back in malaysia or where eer u r??? miss me??? hahahha i bet u guys do hehe and maddie r u seriously plannig to come study wif me cause if u r i can help u find a place to stay and i need to know wat subjects u r interested in to find u the sutaible college or high school or may be u should just come to my school even if its a bit expensive well private school mah wat do u expect!?!?!? LOL haahah email me ok!!!
ok whoever who reads my blog can u tag me cause im so lame and so little ppl come to my blog and tag me so sad!!!! hahahah pls ^^ hahaha so nothin big happened here cept how my cuz hav problem wif her bf so fuckin mafan ok!!!! ai yo i have better things to do den seeing u guys keep changing ur minds ok so just get it straight either u break up or not hahahaha not to be mean or anything im so tired of seeing u guys fight cause it had been happening for 4 weeks in a row NOT GOOD hahaha other den that my frens are sweet everthing is goin fine here... well almost everything hahahah miss u guys love u guys hope to see u soon!!!!

2007-01-17T03:57:00.000+13:45

1. What is more difficult for you? Looking into someone's eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone's eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
i guess listening to other people's problem would be easier... telling others how u feel would be much harder... unless those people are people like ji min... some one that i trust A LOT and i know that she surely will be there for me and dear i will always ve there for u too! nothin can break our frenship!

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry?
i dont wanna bring up the past... some of u might know... for the others... u just have to read my old posts...^^

3. You are on a flight from Bristol to KL with your family non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who would you call?
well i have a broken family so i guess those family trips wont exist... but if it does i would call Ji Min and tell her to tell the rest of my frens that i love them and i would always there for them... but of course i wont tell them that im gonna die.

4. You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you are going to die. (1) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?
i wont tell anyone... people got their own problems... i dun wan them to get even stress because of me but of course wen it reaches my last days i would tell them!

(2) What do you do with your remaining days?
i would first go have fun wif all my frens... hang out wif them and do crazy funny things... den i would want to travel the world!

(3) Would you be afraid?
dont think so... we r all gonna face it eventually.

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust/love. Which do you choose?
trust. if we dun trust each other love wouldnt come...

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you save the dog?
ill jump into the water and save the dog den ill call the office and ask for a half a day leave!

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or why not?
if they r willing to listen y not give it a try... u dun know wats gonna happen and if they accept ur apology den it ur relationship will still be there... nothin is impossibleif we try!

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?
if its a girl ill tell her sry... im not les! but we still can be frens no matter wat. if it is a guy i would say i dun wanna ruin the relationship we have now so we will be better of as best frens

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Will you do it?
yes of course ill give that one hr to him... and that person would be my uncle! from wat i rmb he is always there for me... and i would wanna say my goodbye to him as i din get to do it and i wasnt even there for him wen he die! uncle i love u... u r more like a father to me den my own father.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
i guess so... y dun u ask my frens... hehe

11. Does love = sex?
Nope, definitly not!

well im goin back to NZ on the 24th of jan... i will definitly miss all my frens in malaysia cause i really did the other time! but dun worri guys i will see u on9 and pls dl skype and go buy a web cam so i can see ur faces hehe!! ill be back before u even know it... hahaha 11 months will go past very quicly and of course KEEP IN TOUCH! dun wanna lose any of u! u guys r important to my life without all ur support i dun even know how i went through those rainy days! I LOVE U GUYS TO THE BITS!

Ji min - be strong ok! everything will be fine!! and forget bout DK he is so not worth it hahah..

Clare - ill miss u mom! T.T dun get to any more affairs... LOL and im scared wen u r piss off ur really scary T.T

Maddie - takes things slow ok.. dun rush into things... ull just end up getting hurt!

Son - things getting better? if u wanna run away buy a ticket to NZ u can live wif me hehe!!!

Naina - ill miss u!!! ill miss ur jokes and sarcasim and how u always correct my english and wen u say caryn u sound better wen u sing cause u dun have the chapalang slang !

Karin - work hard for these 2 yrs!! uni life is much more relax! MISS U SO MUCH! come visit me ok!!!

ellie - u r turning changing ... dun change so much ok ill not be able to recognise u wen im back... and i miss staying over ur house playing mahjong!!

Aruna - i have realli no idea where u r! may be in uk.. haha and i really miss u haven see u in such a long time! wen i get back we have to meet up ok!

SR - no matter wat happen ill always be there for u... even if i am like half way a round the world just give me a call... i will listen to ur problems... of course sms me first as u dun know wat i am doin hehe!

2006-12-14T06:45:00.000+13:45

if you looked inside a girl--
you would see how much she really cries.
you would find so many secrets and lots
of lies. but what you'll see the most is how
hard it is to stay strong when nothing is
right and everything is wrong.

together we party ; together we cry.
kept every secret & covered every lie cause
we`ll be best friends until the day we die

& just remember, when life
knocks you down on your
knees... you're in the perfect

love me or leave me
but whatever you do
just please don't lead me onposition to pray

take no one for granted
because the truth is
no one waits forever <3

2006-12-14T06:35:00.000+13:45

hey guys!!! just watch the video's on the giseye blog... HAHAHA ITS DAMN FUNNY MAN ... u ppl from gis should go check it out... as the school dun know bout this
hahahahha... the website is giseye.blogspot.com !!! go check it out!!!

ok so i got my airticket... FINALLY!!! im goin back on jan the 20th... and school's startin on 29th of jan... dun realli feel like goin back to school as i haven been revisin or even touchin any of the text book for more den 6 month!!! basically i forgot everything that i was taught in GIS... hehe but nvm ill work my arse off LOL!!!

been so busy this week... and today is my bro b day... HAPPY B DAY BRO!!! but u r so old hahahah lol u fuckin ah beng... so i am goin to china this sunday wif most of my family members... this is gonna be fun ppl!!! wif all my funny cuz and late nites we gonna spend doin stupid things... cant wait!!!!

hai ... dunno wat to write now so bb^^

2006-12-07T04:41:00.000+13:45

i dunno why... but i feel like lockin myself in my room. I dun wanna know wats goin on out there... i dun wanna think bout anything... i dun wanna care anymore... life's complicated... life's feeled wif happynesss...life's feeled wif lies... i just wanna be alone... not think bout the outside world... not talkin to anyone... not doin anything... and onli lyin on my bed starin at the ceiling high above...

sometimes i just wanna kill myself.. even ask y i was born into this world... if i have not been born den everything i feel will just go away...yet i wont meet my parents, brother, cousins, and friends... i realli dunno wat i can do wif my life... i hate myself for being who i am... sometimes i just wish that i can go back in time and just be the girl i used to be... impossible... impossible... impossible... what can i do wif my life... i've been searchin for the answer for a long time... but im still lost...

maybe it's time to stop... just stop... stop for a while and think...

sometimes i feel like i am a puppet being controled by someone else... doing things that i hate... stop stop stop... i just wanna stop rite here at this moment... but wat can i do... i hate my life...

2006-11-16T01:59:00.000+13:45

just came back from singapore... shop shop shoppin... well i din realli shop for myself more like i bought b day presents for my family.... which is a bad thing... cause my mother father and brothers' b day are so close to each other that it so bad that i have to spend so much money on nov!!!! damn why do my parents and my bro haven to born in nov and dec???? damn u la ... ill be so broke this month but oso a good thing that my b day oso on nov where i can get money... lolbut luckily i bought their presents lol...

well i did not know how i survived in singapore .... livin in the same room as the old mushroom for 3 day... OMFG i actually survived!!!! hahahahah thats a miracle man .... LOL.... but despite the fact that she was there... it was fun...and im already missin mos burger...T.T ... come back here mos burger!!!!...hahahahaha and takin mrt was fun too... wait mrt... that reminds me... some idiot who was takin mrt wif me lead me into the opposite direction train... but thank god we realise after one stop and got off... hahahah funny...

well i got my self a bag for a present for myself for my b day ... i got a damn cool white and green everlast bag!!!!... even though it cost a lot but i love it like so much that its not funny at all!!!!! hahahahha .....but on the journey back home... the fuckin bitch old mushroon pissed me off i was like so fuckin pissed man.... wtf man she say why i have frens u ... im suppose to study... im like wtf cant a person have fren ... if no fren wouldt that be a bit sad... wtf man i fink she4s the one who has no fren that why she dun wan ppl to have fren fucker....den like the issue bout my parents have been like 2 yrs long... i mean ppl would have got over it rite... but noooo she kept goin on and on bout it ... wtf man it been 2 yrs and u that old mushroom still complainin how bad my father is blar blar blar... i mean like he is like my father ... sand he always will be ... so wtf r u talkin bout... im not like u man woman ... and i dun wanna be like u.... if i have a wish i would wish u could nvr talk ... like just shut ur god damn poisened mouth man... fuck u la and dun wanna talk bout u already so BB!!!!

2006-11-12T03:43:00.000+13:45

just came back from gentin... went to perm my hair too... well it looks damn short now but its actuially long T.T!!! and OMG ji min cut off so much of her hair !!!!! damn man but i still think she looks better after she cut her hair... it s like damn nice but wen she perm it it wasnt that nice.... too late to regret ... live wif it ... it will be gone very fast... if u dun think bout it ... well today i oso know that im goin singapore AGAIN!!! YAY... but onli for 3 days ... T.T

dunno y but this yr is like my travelin yr... at first went to thailand on a starcruse wif all my part of my cousins and family members for chinese new yr... den i went to melbourne for graduation trip ... den i went to new zealand for 3 months... came back for 3/4 weeks ... den i am goin to singapore this monday to wednesday... den in dec.. my family is goin to have a family trip to china.... WOAH.... this is like the yr i travel the most man ... i nvr tried travellin to so much places in one yr man... i broke my own record LOL ... so happy now i can see madeline wen i go singapore.... and i might even meet KARIN WAN WEN I GO CHINA!!!! cause she's oso goin to the same place as me on the same WEEK!!!! wat a coincidence !!!! hopefully i can meet karin.... i miss her so much since she left.... i mean who doesnt miss the funny-blur girl... LOL ... oooo kay gtg play games
LOL

2006-11-08T02:00:00.000+13:45

hahahaha today is my b day!!!! yeh!!!!but no yehh cause im like 17!!!.... damn it im so old hai yo hahah i wish i could be like seven or somwthin !!! all the good time those days... hai well at least i get one yr older can get liscence lol so wat did i do today ... let me see.... woke up at like 10 somethin.... went to eat mamak.... den went to take train change like a lot of station cause i need to meet miss little ji min at kl sentral but i could have just go straight to time square lol hahahahha.... neways meet her at kl sentral got to time square and walk around.... hmmm.. den went to makan den took the monorall and lrt home wif sam's drivin!!!!! den went to buy ice cream cake ... hehe i haven eaten ice cream cake for so long .... and it was a pesent from sam tooo... hehe thxx sam!!!! hahahah well at least ive known u for 8 yrs hahahah since i was 9 WOAH THAT WAS A LONG TIME so its ok to spend little money on me rite !!!! plus i know u gettin good pay now!!!!! hahahaha lol .... neway cut cake ate it help ji min wif her homework....den went to maddie's house and is stuck here now....so yeh that how my b day goeswelll kimda sad rite!!! T.T but neways i have fun .....ok 3h 20 more min to go for my b day so yeh that s it....

2006-11-03T17:58:00.000+13:45

. : Basics : .
[ .001. ] first name: Caryn
[ .002. ] middle name: Huei sing... and ji min stop callin me by this name!!!
[ .003. ] last name: Yap
[ .004. ] nickname(s): carrot... kai wen (in chinese)... karen...
[ .005. ] gender: female
[ .006. ] age: 16 turnin 17 soonn.... im gettin older NOOO
[ .007. ] birthday: 7TH NOV
[ .008. ] height: 166 i fink not sure...
[ .009. ] hair color: dark brown
[ .010. ] eye color: dark brown
[ .011. ] race: chinese`
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: yes... so does my whole family!!!
[ .013. ] do you have braces: nope i have perfect teeth ... hehe
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: long i guess.... but not long enough!!!
[ .015. ] where were you born: malaysia
[ .016. ] current location: at home ... havin my sweet holiday
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: scorpio... im so evil just like a scorpian!!!
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: english mandarin malay cantonese hokkian
[ .019. ] nationality: malaysian... duhhhh
[ .020. ] bad habits: watched too much tv....i fink
[ .021. ] piercings you have: 3 on both ears
[ .022. ] piercings you want:dunno...
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: one
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: i wan one more on my lower back!!!!>.<
[ .025. ] today's date: 3rd nov
[ .026. ] the time: 12:12 pm
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: ok since i have nothin to do now!!!

. : Family : .
[ .028. ] mother's name: lydia
[ .029. ] father's name: yap yong khon i fink i spelled it wrongly but who cares~~~
[ .030. ] step-parent's names, if any: nope dun have one
[ .031. ] brother(s)'s name(s): Eric
[ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): none
[ .033. ] favorite aunt: faith!!! love her
[ .034. ] favorite uncle: faith 's husband for got his name sry dua ku!!!!>,<
[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: none as i dun realli know most of them but ill vote for my mom's dad!!! heard he is a nice guy!!!
[ .036. ] worst relative: grandma
[ .037. ] best relative: me cuzzz
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: yes
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: yes but not many

. : Pets : .
[ .040. ] do you have any pets: nope my mom hates animals so i have no pets!!!
[ .041. ] what are their names: dun have one
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they:if i have one ill name it pussy!!! LOL

. : School : .
[ .043. ] are you still in school: yes high school one ye left yr 13
[ .044. ] did you drop out: nope
[ .045. ] current gpa, or last gpa you got:dun wanna mention it!!!
[ .046. ] favorite grade: A* who doesnt wan A*!?!?!?!
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: U - ungraded!!!
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: ms wilson!!! i miss ur math class!!!!
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: dun have one
[ .050. ] favorite subject: it was drama ... so fun
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: ICT!!!!
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: buy
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: used to....
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular ativities: yes for my CV!!!!
[ .055. ] are/were you popular: dun fink so!!!
[ .057. ] favorite memory: goin on a holiday wif all my cousins wen we were young!!!
[ .058. ] least favorite dance:rite ... wtf u talkin bout!!!!
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: the ones wif my grand ma in it
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: ummm always very clumsy and fallin down lol...

. : Favorites : .
[ .061. ] number: 7 or 11
[ .062. ] clothing brand: nice and comfy ones
[ .063. ] shoes: addidas or converse
[ .064. ] saying: fuck u.... LOL
[ .065. ] tv show: prison break so damn nice!!!!
[ .066. ] sport: basketball swimmin...
[ .067. ] vegetable: broccolis the best
[ .068. ] fruit: water melon love it
[ .069. ] movie: ummm... step up damn nice for now la...
[ .070. ] magazine: seventeen lol....
[ .071. ] actor: hot ones...LOL
[ .072. ] actress: dunno...
[ .073. ] candy: reeve peanut butter cup!!!
[ .074. ] gum: extra!!!!
[ .075. ] scent: forever and ever dior
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: vanilla!!!
[ .078. ] color: blue black green yellow ... rockish colours!!!
[ .079. ] season: winter
[ .080. ] holiday: chinese new yr where all the money comes LOL
[ .081. ] band: ummm... got loads la the panic channel ... tenicious d... n more
[ .082. ] singer: ppl who can sing
[ .083. ] group: i dunno...
[ .084. ] rapper: chamilionare ahahaha
[ .085. ] type of music: rock ballet
[ .086. ] thing in your room: a bed 2 doors a table some shelves a cupboard chair and bed side table
[ .087. ] place to be: away from home
[ .088. ] radio station: hits .fm
[ .089. ] tv channel: C4 (in newzealand)
[ .090. ] junk food: chocolates!!!
[ .091. ] overall food: ummm japanese food!!!
[ .092. ] store: ummm... dvd shops...
[ .093. ] shoe brand: addidas
[ .094. ] fast food: MC D
[ .095. ] restaurant: Chilli's
[ .096. ] shape: round or diamond
[ .097. ] time of day: sleepin oe hangin out wif frens
[ .098. ] country:SPAIN ITALLY FRANCE....
[ .099. ] state: baschelona how ever u spell it lol!!!
[ .100. ] boys names: matthews , Daivin
[ .101. ] girls names: Devin
[ .102. ] mall: one u... lol
[ .103. ] video game: haven been playin video game for a long time so dunno
[ .104. ] shampoo: any one that my mom buys
[ .105. ] board game: RISK MONOPOLY CLUEDO MR. SPY HOTELAR love board games!!!
[ .106. ] computer game: this question u should ask my bro not me .. wrong person!!!
[ .107. ] car: mini cooper or evo or... dunno lol!!!
[ .108. ] music video: not sure as my mom cut of channel 70 71 72 DAMN IT!!!!
[ .109. ] swear word: FUCK
[ .110. ] word: nahhh
[ .111. ] month: novemeber
[ .112. ] cartoon character: sponge bob!!!
[ .113. ] scary movie: scary movie 1 2 n 3
[ .114. ] team: lakers
[ .115. ] possession: channel lipstick and dior perfumm!!!! love them

. : What's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear : .
[ .116. ] eminem: white famous rapper
[ .117. ] dog: missy!!!!
[ .118. ] hot: jessica alba
[ .119. ] britney spears: wasted
[ .120. ] nsync: gay
[ .121. ] real world:not a fantasy world
[ .122. ] orange: karin
[ .123. ] choice: not me ... i cant decide
[ .125. ] bisexual: hahahahahah... dun wanna say the name ***
[ .126. ] black: raicise
[ .127. ] icq: dun have one
[ .128. ] insane clown posse: madeline LOL
[ .129. ] linkin park: ROCK ON!!!

where's 130? oh well.

[ .131. ] rainbow: seven colours
[ .132. ] cherry: red

and 133?

[ .134. ] shark: scary
[ .135. ] lifehouse: long
[ .136. ] bat: puiny
[ .137. ] leather: crocodile
[ .138. ] whip: horse
[ .139. ] america: 8th ocean
[ .140. ] water: coolin
[ .141. ] volcano: hot

. : This or that : .
[ .142. ] rock or rap: rock
[ .143. ] rock or pop: rock
[ .144. ] rock or r&b: r&b
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: pop.
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: r&b.
[ .148. ] rap or metal: rap
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: r&b
[ .150. ] pop or metal: pop
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: r&b
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: linkin park
[ .153. ] tool or korn: tool
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: j lo
[ .155. ] hot or cold: cold
[ .156. ] winter or summer: winter
[ .157. ] spring or fall: spring
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: shakira
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: eminem!
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: marilyn manson
[ .161. ] atomic kitten or garbage: garbage
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1: MTV
[ .163. ] buffy or angel: buffy
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: none
[ .165. ] football or basketball: both
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: both
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
[ .168. ] rollerblading or skateboarding: rollerblading
[ .169. ] black or white: black
[ .170. ] orange or red: orange
[ .171. ] yellow or green: green
[ .172. ] purple or pink:purple i hate pink!!!
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: slipknot
[ .174. ] moon or sun: mooon
[ .175. ] inside or outside: outside
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: both hahahaha lol
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: cell
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: noth
[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: charlie's angle
[ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: SCOOBY DUH!
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: not sure
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: star wars!!!
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: tattoos
[ .184. ] prep or punk: punk
[ .185. ] slut or whore: none

. : Private life : .
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: nope
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: nope
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: nope
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: nope
[ .190. ] how many people of you kissed: dunno
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: hahahha who else maddie la in a dare!!!!
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: none but i would love to break onelol
[ .193. ] how any people broke your heart: none
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: love me for who i am
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like:HOT
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: no
[ .197. ] do you have a picture of yourself: duh...
[ .198. ] do you go by looks or personality: look first den personality
[ .199. ] ever kiss a friend: duhhhh
[ .200. ] are you still friends: duhhhhh
[ .201. ] so moving along..do you smoke: hahah yes ...
[ .202. ] do you smoke weed: hahhahaha ... yes
[ .203. ] ever trip on acid: no .. im not that bad
[ .204. ] how about a little x: no !!!!
[ .205. ] crack, heroin, anything else: nope thats too much
[ .206. ] beer good or beer bad: beer ok... LOL
[ .207. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: NO
[ .208. ] do you like smirnoff ice: NO
[ .209. ] prefer beer or liquor: liquor
[ .210. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: marbloro lights
[ .211. ] are you a virgin: duhhh

. : Would you ever : .
[ .212. ] bungee jump: YES!!!!
[ .213. ] sky dive: HELL YEAH!!!!
[ .214. ] swim with dolphins: YESHHHHH!!!!
[ .215. ] scuba dive: YESH!!!!

what happened to the other ones? lol.

[ .220. ] go rock climbing: done
[ .221. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: no fuckin way
[ .222. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: no fuckin way
[ .223. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: NO fuckin way
[ .224. ] cross-dress: yeah would love to
[ .225. ] lie to the police: dependssss
[ .226. ] run from the police: y should i???
[ .227. ] lie to your parents: yeah
[ .228. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: if onli he is hot and im on a dare
[ .229. ] be an exotic dancer: no way
[ .230. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: would love to try
[ .231. ] streak: nope

. : Your friends : .
[ .232. ] best friend: the whole of sr but ji min is the closet os all
[ .233. ] known longest: ji min
[ .234. ] wish you talked to more: naina
[ .235. ] wish you saw more: mel
[ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: nicole
[ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: ji min
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': nope...
[ .239. ] craziest: ji min shes so insane
[ .240. ] loudest: aruna
[ .241. ] shyest: ellie
[ .242. ] best hair: ellie
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: ji min!!!
[ .244. ] best eyes: naina
[ .245. ] best body: ellie or maddie or son!!!
[ .246. ] most athletic: hmm... maddie
[ .247. ] sex symbol: maddie!?!?! no la jkin
[ .248. ] hot tempered: clare
[ .249. ] most impatient: ji min
[ .250. ] shortest: karin wan!!!
[ .251. ] tallest: ellie
[ .252. ] talented: we all are.

yet again, where's 253?

[ .254. ] skinniest: aruna
[ .255. ] nicest: al oso very nice
[ .256. ] best personality: maddie
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: KEN

. : Have you ever : .
[ .258. ] flashed someone: nope
[ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: nope
[ .260. ] been to michigan: nope
[ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: yesh... and i vomitted too!!!
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: nope
[ .263. ] skateboarded: nope
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: nope
[ .265. ] stolen anything: yeaaah
[ .266. ] wanted to beat me up for making this so long: yeah
[ .267. ] Beat someone up: YUP
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: duh
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: hahahaha dunno may be wen i was drunk i did but cant rmb
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: duhhhh
[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: duhhhh
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: yeah
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: YES
[ .275. ] been to a concert: NO
[ .276. ] been to another country: duhhhh
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: duh
[ .278. ] got pulled over: nope
[ .279. ] go in a car accident: yes
[ .280. ] broke a law: yeh
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: yup
[.282. ] tried to kill yourself: ummm... kinda more like hurtin myself
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: duhh wen i was young
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: yesh
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: nope
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways: nope

. : Opinions : .
[ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: ok la
[ .288. ] about boy bands: gay
[ .289. ] about flag burning: country diein
[ .290. ] of the war on terrorists: y fight?
[ .291. ] about suicide: theres a reason behind it
[ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: shut up ppl!!!
[ .293. ] about abortion: it like killin a life
[ .294. ] about rock/metal music: load of shoutin
[ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: not here
[ .296. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: all of sr

[ .340. ] are you skinny: anope
[ .341. ] are you short: nope
[ .342. ] are you tall: yes ... i fink
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: nope
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: nope ... brown???
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: u must be crazy to see one
[ .346. ] are you evil: ahahaha... yes!!!
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: NOPE
[ .348. ] is britney a whore: yes.
[ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie:nope
[ .350. ] am i annoying you: very
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: yes
[ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: may be...
[ .353. ] do you like to shop: yes

. : Random questions : .
[ .354. ] if you could be any animal, what would you be: a dolphin
[ .355. ] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be: chocolates
[ .356. ] do you remember any of your dreams: yes
[ .357. ] do you dream in color or black and white: colour
[ .358. ] do you admit when you need help with a problem: yeah
[ .359. ] can people read you like a book: yes ...
[ .360. ] what's your biggest fear: stuck in a life wif my grand ma
[ .361. ] do you talk a lot: yes
[ .362. ] are you afraid of clowns:no
[ .363. ] do you like spiders: nope
[ .364. ] how about grape kool-aid: hmmmm....
[ .365. ] can you drive: yes but not legal though hehe
[ .366. ] are you spoiled: no way!!!
[ .367. ] are you anti-social: let see... NO
[ .368. ] do you see dumb people: yeh load like u!!!
[ .369. ] do you see dead people: nope
[ .370. ] any last words: how many more questions have i got???
[ .371. ] now that this is over, what are you going to do: get out of the house and go karaoke duhhhh...

2006-11-02T17:42:00.000+13:45

1) Realize anything new?
yeh...but its a secret!

2) Who made you laugh a minute ago?
no one

3) Called you in the middle of the night?
ill pick up and say bb LOL

4) Ever liked someone, but you think they never noticed you?
yeh... i guess so

5) How much cash do you have on you right now?
not sure

6) Have you ever been given roses?
Yes... from my frens LOL

7) How many times can you honestly say you've been in love?
let see ... none ... lol

8) Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
Yes.... duhhhh seein them as sisters!!!!

9) Have you ever broken someones heart?
nope.... but i would love to... LOL

10) What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
ill turn around and slap them one their face hard out

11) Do you still talk to your first realboyfriend/girlfriend?
nope ... i nvr had one lol

12) What you prefer in your relationship to be called?
my name duhhhh.....

13) What should you be doing right now?
nothing... since im on holiday....

14) Have you been on a date in the past week?
no...

15) Have you ever kissed someone you dont like?
err duhhhh as in dares....

16) Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
TELL ME WHO DOESNT!!!

17) What are you going to do later in the night?
eat dinner ... go on9 ..... sleep .... watch tv??

18) Have you ever had a crush on your brother's or sister's friend?
nope its just wrong lol....

19) Have you ever had a stalker?
kinda ... very scary too....rmb maddie in sungai wang???

20) Have you ever felt betrayed by your "bestfriend"?
yes but she is not my best fren now so i dont realli care....

21) Have you ever seen your girl best friend naked?
errr duhhhhh hahahahah i ve seen everything of their and they seen everything of mine lol

22) Do you mind spending a lot of money for the ones you love?
depends...

23) When you see the person you like with another girl?
as long as he is not mine its fine lol... its just a crush neways....

24) What time did you sleep last night?
12-1 am i think..

25) What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
His face lol....

26) What is your biggest mistake?
trustin my grandma's nonsense

27) Did you have braces on?
nope nvr i have perfect teeth LOL

28) What is the most romantic thing someone of the opposite sex has said to you?
hmmmm.... dunno ...

29) Do you speak any other languages?
yes ... chinese malay hokkian cantonese

30) What do you wish for?
a life without my grandma

31) Have you ever been kissed by a guy?
yes duhhh in all those dares....

32) What are you doing for the past few hours?
errr sleepin...

33) When was the last time you said "i love you"?
a few days ago to my fren lol...

34) Any people in love with you right now?
no....

35) Do you get jealous easily?
nope i dun fink so.....

36) Who last send you testimonial?
mel!!!!! I MISS U MELLL!!!!

37) Among ur accessories which you like most?
ummm necklace

38) Do you have suitors right now?
nope too young for one ...

39) Where would you like to go with your future bf?
spain!!!!! or france !!!! ahhhhh.....

40) Who always make you laugh?
everyone.... mayt be its more like i make ppl laugh ... LOL

41) Who makes your heart beat fast and slow at the same time?
hot actors ... LOL

42) What do you hate most in a relationship?
ummmm.. dunno have not been in a relationship yet...

43) Last person you had a conversation with?
MADDIE

44) Would you want to hold ur boyfriend's housekey?
yes incase i run away from home and have no where to go.... lol

45) Are you willing to love again even if you've been hurt many times?
i guess it depends.... diff guys diff thoughts

46) Do you prefer to see him/her everyday or not so often?
in the middle i guess

47) Whats my ringtone now?
some lousy shit la.... lol as my sony phone rojak already T.T

48) Your thoughts on online relationships?
nvr works

49) Honestly, where do you like to be kissed?
chick

50) Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
err duhhhhh .... i wonder who...

51) Do you have a crush on someone in your school right now?
no

52) How long does it take you to shower?
15 mins

53) Last person that saw you cry?
no one actually saw mw cry they onli heard me over the phone as i was all the way in NZ

54) Do you like handsome guys?
duhhh who doesnt...???

55) What are you planning to do this weekend?
not sure....

56) What made you smile today?
nothin its just like 12 06 pm!!!

57) Whose your bestfriend?
the whole of SR!!!

58) What is your status right now?
single ....

59) Who you wanna meet down the days of your life?
some one that can take away all my stress and sadness

60) Whats the first thing you do when you see a pervert?
bit him up LOL

61) When did you last receive a rose?
forgot...

62) Do you demand your loved one to change into something that pleases you?
nope if i realli love him... i would love him for who he is...

63) What is the major reason of a break up?
dunnoo???

64) Which do you prefer? Kisses or hugs?
ummm.... hugs i guesss...

65) What present would you prefer on Valentines day?
chocolates!!!! i love them... hehe

well yesterday me and maddie the 2 sad asses went to sunway lagoon... hahahaha i know its realli sad rite??? but who cares as long as we went.... it was damn fun whe its like the onli 2 of us goin on the ride over and over again... den something damn funny happen while we where waitin for the ride....

(HIGH PITCH SCREAMIN COMIN OUT FROM THE FULLY COVERED SPIRAL RIDE)
maddie : must be kinda fast and scary...
me: yeh must be 2 girls comin down...
maddie: yeh wonder who is it...
(SCREAMIN GETS LOUDER AND LOUDER)
aplash TWO INDIAN GUYS CAME OUT...
maddie : wahhahahahahahahahahahha
me: wat the... wahahahahahahahahahahah
yeh thats basically wat happened.
despite the fact that we walked so much in sunway lagoon to reach the rides maddie and me went for a fest frist we eat nasi lemak and chicken burger den a corn and den kfc qden ice cream den corn again den go home eat bak kut teh .... i was like bloated man!!!! maddie u have to go shogun wif this typoe of appittiete lol... ok la thats all for today... ^^

2006-11-01T06:17:00.000+13:45

my life is just like those drama series.... well actually not onli mine my cousins as welll... to begin wif i have the most horrible grandma ever... how should i describe her??? hmmm ... lets see i guess the most sutable word to describe her is phycoticly crazy.... im serious man her purpose of livin is to ruin other ppl's family and life.... to the extend, my cuz and i even call her old bitch or old mushroom... not that we want to ... is just that she made our life misareble and is still doin it now not learnin her lesson. fuck man y does this have to happen to me .... ppl might say ohh u r so lucky ... u r born into such a good family ... u should treasure it... REALLI!?!?!? treasure wat i got now!?!?!? treasure wat is to be a tragedy???? well im not so sure i would want to treasure such tragedy. ppl outside my family would nvr understand. how could a 70 yr old grandmother have her own grand sons and daughters against her... isnt that a bit sad... or may be its a tragedy... livin in her own world thinkin she is THE queen will im here to live for my self for my own happiness not for urs u bitch so do my cousins so back off and continue livin in ur own world!!! wats the problem of marrying some one that is not ur own race??? is it a crime...??? tragedy .... isnt it just a tragedy if none of ur family members... even ur closest cousins does not know that u r gettin married and can never attend ur once in a life time marriage??? and where did all these begin??? ohh i know ... our grand ma .... just because she cant accept a black into our family!!!! wat rite fo u have to judge who we marry as long as we r happy u OLD BITCH!!! we live to be happy for ourself not for u!!!! we do not love for other ppl woman!!! we live for ourself.... u think ur so clever that u can just hide things as secrets that is nvr to be found out!?!?!? well guess wat u r so WRONG!!!... secrets r to be revealed it can nvr last FOREVER U DUMB BITCH.... i know wat other ppl might think wen they see my blog... wat a bad grabd daughter i am blar blar blar... well let me tell u... u have nvr been through this so u do not know wat it is like ... so dun judge.... i just pity my cousins that they can nvr experince a normal grandma that doesnt judge who their daughters or son marry to wheather they r poor or rich... so wat if my dad or aunts r poor ???? they r still human ok.... so wat if they r not as rich as some ppl... huh? they at least still have a thing call heart that u nvr will have.... i will nvr forget wat u did to all those that u look down at ... mark my words... I WILL NVR FORGET!!! and u know wat... im goin to study so hard and get my degree and get a damn good job and live my own life ... i dun even wanna go back to my old life where i have to face u at all ... and one day u r goin to get so mess up as u lied so much to break ppls family !!!!! I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE A LIFE WIF U... MARK MY WORDS !!!!

ok enough bout the stupid idiotic old mushroom/bitch... i dun give a fuck bout her ne more.... just wanna get her out of my life which i surely will wen i am independent enough and earn my own money....

well this week have been fun .... hahahha goin out havin fun wif my frens ... doin crazy things.... hmmmm.... sonia's b day is fun i mean its REALLI FUN!!! hahahahaah well after that like today ive been nearly killed by boredem... at home man i just have to go out... damn my mom is already complainin how much i have been goin out!!! i mean ive onli been back 2 weeks !!!! girls just wanna have fun mom!!!!! hahahahah im sure ull understand that... hehe but too bad u GROUNDED ME!!!! HOW CAN U DO THAT MOM MY B DAY IS NEXT WEEK AND IM GROUNDED FOR 2 WEEKSSS NOOOOOOO!!!!! but neways ill try my best to go out hahahha lol.... mom u know u cant stop me ... well may be u can but i still wanna go out !!!! u so have to let me out mom!!!!!

2006-10-26T17:04:00.000+13:45

its been a while since myy last entry.... well guess wat!?!?! IM BACK IN MALAYSIA YAY!!! yet not much things have change.... i know since ive been to new zealand i have change loads.... thinkin back to the past, i was realli different wen i was in yr 10 and now...... 2 years....... in 2 years time ive change from good girl not goin out much to a bad girl who goes out a lot and smokes and clubbss ..... to tell u the truth.... i kinda miss the old me....... but its too late to turn back......oh well ill justlook into the future for hope. hmmm..... so i have 2 and a half months left in malaysia!?!?! waqd ncan we do .... hahahah mold to death at home..... hahahaha go out!?!?!...... hahhahah better not go out too much .... my mom is like complainin bout how much i go out..... ai yo damn it la ..... i have to go for lunch or dinner at my grandma's at least 5 times a week... i mean wtf man i dun see my couu7sin who just got back from overseas go to my grandma house so often so why do i have to do it?!?!?! damn it ..... wastin my precious time i rather go watch tv LOL hehe...... any ways.... i miss newzealand LOADSSS ...... the reason is.... there r more freedom there ,..... no naggins from my mom 24/7 a day( even wen im sleepin in the mornin) T.T poor caryn!!! but nevwermind at least i get to sleep over and go out..... and wtf im gettin broke AHHHHHH not good not good must get a job or somethin!!!! damn y cant i be more thrifty..... T.T wait..... did i just as myself to be more thrifty!?!?! HAHAHAHAHAHA CARYN YAP U R NUTS!!!!!! lol have any one seen me thrifty before hahahahahahah..... fine fine i need money lol ...... okok back in newzealand i was oso always broke hahahahah damn it im like the poorest girl out of my frens CAUSE I SPEND SO MUCH MONEY damn it !!!!! have to control myself .... ok may be i should gamble wif myc ousins and win some money off them ... hmmmm..... good idea LOL i guess thats it for today... may be i should lock myself at home for a week and m,old and not spend money and just eat watch tv sleep and go toilet LOL OKOK..... ill think of somethin lol ..... hehe

2006-10-03T07:29:00.000+13:45

20 People You Can Think Of Off The Top Of Your Head

1. my bro(eric)
2. my cuz(pei)
3. ji min
4. madeline
5. Clare
6. karin
7. ellie
8. sonia
9. naina
10. gerry
11. bonnie
12. echo
13. jing
14. xiao hai
15. isabella
16. aruna
17. nicole
18. joe
19. jess
20. cassie

* order of names do not reflect the level of importance !! *

1. How did you meet 13?
(jing) At school,in new zealand through gerry

2. What would you do if you never met 5?
(Clare) omg... r u serious!?!? deni would not exsit she my mom!!! hahahah

3. What do you honestly think of 10?
(gerry) gerry!??!?! umm he is funny and to me he is like one of my girl friends.

4. If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need them to know?
(my bro) ur a great bro i wont forget u.. ur the best bro i ever had love u loads

5. Would 3 and 17 make a lovely couple?
(ji min $nicole) HAHAHA thats so funny... NO!

6. Do you know any of 4's family members?
(maddie) her dad her mom and her sister ashley.

7. What would you do if 2 just professed their undying love for u?
(my cuz) r u serious shes like my cuz plus we r girls ill tell her hey man r u seriosu we r not lesbos rite u have a BF! ahahahahah

8. What language does 19 speak?
(Jess) English.

9. Who is 8 going out with?
(Son) No one... i fink...

10. When was the last time you talked to 18?
(Joe) umm.. last somethin cant rmb... hehe

11. What's number 9's favorite band?
(Naina) she likes nigger shit all those hip hop music... is that rite naina!?!?1

12. Does 2 have any siblings?
(my cuz) yes one younger bro who is taller den me!!!! i wanna be tall too!!!

13. Would you ever date 6?
(Karin) I so would shes so blur if u cheat on her she wont know hahzahahahah... jkin!!! of course shes a great gal

14. Would you ever date 7?
(ellie) i s would shes o pretty hey model figure man!!!

15. Is 15 single?
(Isabella) she so is singl ... to tell u the truth it is very hard forher to find a man as she is agressive and cheesy...its true!!!

16. What is 3's middle name?
(Ji min) she dont have a middle name.

17. Wheres 20?
(Cassie) At home sleepin in her bed!?!

18. What is 5's biggest wish?
(Clare) to get a damn handsome and rich bf???

19. Would 14 and 20 make a good couple?
(Cassie &xiao hai) no fuckin way xia hai is like 14 and cassie is like wat 22 over!?!?!?!

20. What school does 16 go to?
(Aruna) some school in england hahahaha... dunno the name...

21. What school does 17 go to?
(Nicole) taylor's college CPU

22. Where does 9 live?
(Naina) Bangsar... where else lol...

23. Would you make out with number 12?
(Echo) NO way ... shes like my first girl friends in nz!!!

24. Are number 5 and number 16 best friends?
(Clare & Aruna) hell yeh we r all in SR one nig group of best frens

25. What is the coolest thing about 3?
(Ji min) her personality i guess... straight and forward ... may eb hot and sexy too accordin to guys hahahahah

26. Whats your best memory of 1?
(My bro) hahah funny i practically live my whole life iwif him the best memory i got is she leavin a bruse on my leg thinkin it was a joke and that im pretendin that i got hit!btw ko ko the bruse still exsit... lol

27. What is 13's mom's name?
(Jing) His mom;s name i have no idea...

28. Name 9's siblings in order by age.
(Naina) ummm... 2 older bro and one younger one but im sry i frgot their name hahahah sry naina...

29.What is 8's last name?
(Sonis) Heng

30. What grade is 7 in?
(Ellie) sixth form yr 12

31. Would u ever spend the night at 11's house?
(Bonnie) DUHHH she is like so funny i would lobve to spend a nite at her house...

ok its like 7.04 in the mornin now gtg sleep haven been slepin nites pp love u guys miss u guys be back in 12 days time... xoxoxoxox

2006-10-02T17:10:00.000+13:45

hey guys im ok now... dun worry man things r great now between me and my cuz. was realli angry wif her the ither day but things r goin great now as she talk things out wif me... so dun worri.
welll im in my holidays now hahahaha so fuckin borin plus we kept goin out and im kinda broke now hahahahaa... but we watc some movies dunno if its out in malaysia but we watch stormbreaker, stick it. step up , garfield 2, john tucker must die, lady in the water, DOA, and more (i forgot)hahahaha man i must tell u ppl here in nz wen they watch movie they r realli weird. for instance, back in malaysia wen a funny scene come up everyone will crack up but here wen i go watch movie wif my frensor cuz, we r the onli ones who crack up and the whole cinema will be like all quiet and we r the onli one who crack up hahahahah which is super weird... hahahahahha weird arses kiwi must be cold blooded or something ... hahahahhaha..

well if those movies are not out yet in malaysia i tell u i wont mind watchin again wif u guys cause we r frens mah... love u guys so much and miss u guys so much tooo....

talkin about frens i have this girlfren call isabella and im fuckin scared of her she id fuckin cheesy and for me she id the most cheesiest preson i ever met in my whole life wtf man... its like we me and my frens go out we kinda like do the arm to arm thing rite which is completely normal but she must go stick her hands in my jacket's pocket which realli freaks me out. and out of the bloom she will just grab one of our hans and start playin aand that realli FUCKIN FREAKS ME OUT VEN MORE!!!!!!!!! sometimes i even wonder if shes a lesbian or somethin. man and wenever we go sing k she ll just hog on to the mic and keep pushinher songs up spo she can sing first and i have to like wait 1.30 hrs to sing my song and believe me she cant sing. imagine how a dolphine squeekzzz thats how she sing... terrible .. hahah enough bout her now i gotta get off now my cuz jsut came home and need to do her assignment ... btw its like 5 hrs diff now cause of daylight savin.

welll i miss u guys and love u guys so much and ill be back in 13 days..

take care love ya <3 xoxoxoxox <3

2006-09-23T00:49:00.000+12:45

fuckin hell.... fuckin cousin ... shes a fuckin bitch... fuckin hate livin wif her rite now. i mean wtf is wrong wif her. ok this is wat happen.

fuckin got home sendin off my frens and i am fuckin tired. a bunch of dishes r left sitin in the sink dirty. cousin came home and ask me to wash the dishes. i told her ill do it tmr cause im tired. she was like noo... tmr its onli me whos goin to do it. blar blar blar and i was thinkin if i say im gonna do it tmr ill do it tmr. and if u dun wanna do it who ask u to ? fuckin got damn pissed den i washed the dishes la. den wtf she fuckin went and inspect the dishes and said like wat the dishes u wash r dirty but not directly. im like fuckin piss den she start trowin the dishes i wash in the sink thinkin im gonna wash it again. but fuck off bitch im so not gonna do it. i mean like i wash the dishes wif my bare hands and if i wash wif my bare hand den ill canlike feel and see the fuckin dirt but its like clean im like wtf. den she just told me is u wanna clean the dishes clean the dishes properly. im like fuckin piss off rite now fuckin bitch even if u r like my cousin closer den related sister i dun give a fuck now BITCH! and i fuckin hate livin wif u feel like a fuckin SLAVE! and even if u see this entry u know wat i dun fuckin give a damn cause i fuckin hate livin wif u. u BITCH! to tell u the truth i have been holdin this on for such a long time and u know wat i fuckin hate ur attiutude! so wat if u like went and check up ths school for me u know wat u can just not do any of those and ill fuckin go do it my self cause its not hard at all . fuck u la bitch!

fuckin hate livin wif that mother fucker innocent whore bitch!

2006-09-17T23:03:00.000+12:45

hey guys !!!! i miss u guys so much ... this is like one way to talk to u guys bout my problems and keep in touch hahaha... which mean we have to read each others blog !!!! hahahaha well its been goin fine here... my rainy days r gone... this is wat happen.

some day last week my cuz got drunk and she started tellin me how she feel and all well i kinda understand and now im all sweet. hope things will stay as it is. i realli miss like those food in malaysia. fink im gonna get fat wen i get home cause like here instant noodle is like my best fren hahahaha....

man i am so makin more frens now which is a good thing compare to wen i first started here. all alone sad and lobely but guess wad that in the past so no more lonely nesss so much more waggin class wif frens lol.

yesterday was gerry's b day party held t in my house. man does my cuz like them or wad hahahaha ... SHE LOVES THEM ADORES THEM. HAHAHAHA ot like they clean up my house after we drink hahaha but stupid jin have to go so early and i have to wake up to open the god damn door for him!!!! stupid farmer... wheres the tomato or potatoe u promise my cuz. hahahaha ... man so funny ... my frens started callin my cuz jia jia hahahaha (big sis)... it was fun yesterday . eventhought load of thing happen its still fun. hahahaha ....

SHOUT OUTS:
JI MIN: hmmmm.... get some sleep!!! woman!ill be there for u in 28 days hahahah...
CLARE: wat r u up to now? im so lost!
MADDIE: guys r DICKS! whoever that guys is u r a DICK!!!dun be sad!! or ill be sad too...
KARIN: hahahaha.... copin up in ur new school??? sure u r!!
SON: got u b day prezzie! but not tellin u wat it is!
NAINA: i see ur relationship is goin well ey?
ELLE: my manga buddy! any nerw series??
ARUNA: hellooo... im have totally lost u! where r u man?

28 more days till ill be back hahah im so happy! guess wat guys? im so freakin short in nz! but im so clever i go fins short ppl to make frens wif like my frens now they r all short hahahahha .... den i feel tall lol. jkin la.

miss u guys loads. love u guys loads. ill be back soon to ne there for u guys!

2006-09-12T13:50:00.000+12:45

ok this is today's one lol... the past fewdays have neen not very good for me... but nvm that who ask me to live a sad life man i wish i can get out of here asap... man nvm that ill tell u sumfin better den my fuckin sad life.

last thursday i got a babysitting job... hahaha i baby sit this cute seven yr old korean boy name dave or david or dragon or dinasour hahahahha...thats wat he told me lol hahaha neways fuck man he is so damn clever !!! and im seriously not kiddin... hahaha he oso does kumon like i do wen i was his age awwww!!!! man ill show u guys his picture if i can get one lol hahahaha that was bout dave. and btw workin for 2 hours get me like 24 dollors = 48ringgit hahahaha malaysia sucks let me guess they onli give wat 4.5 an hour!?!?! woah that a lot!!!O.O hahahahaha

den on sunday opne of my frens isabella,pull me to church hahaha so i pull my other fren jerry to go wif me so i wont die of boredem lol hahaha but guess wat me and jerry sneak out of the church one hour after we got there we couldnt stand theirsingins for so long!!!! hahahaha den basically we pull along another kid call min yu who was supppose to go church but he din to go watch movie.den my cousin came along instead of watchin a movie we went to durniden to eat fish and chips how sad!!!! hahahaha but after that like at 6 jerry min yu and me went to watch a movie. went to busexchange to take a bus but we have to wait 14 min so decided to take a smoke and guess wat we saw. a couple kissin like frenchkissin and somemore very passioate bout it hahahaha and we were like look at them get a room man !!!! hahaha suddenly i automactically walk up to the glass window and knock really loud till the couple turn their head and i turn awaypretendin i dun know wat happen. yet coincidentally, jerry and min yu wasfacin them and they thought jerry did it so we all laugh and ran to a corner where they cant see us and laugh our heads off. but then there were this bunch of korean tourist rite next to us waitin for their bus and they were lookin at us wif the wtf look on their face it was god damn hilarious man HAHAHAHAHA!!!LOL but den after the movie i got on abus and go home but forgot to get off the bus on my bus station so i ended up in themiddle of no where walkin home like one hour walk ??? god knows how long i walk ed but i was all relief wen i got home ahahahaha but guesswat guys i am so fuckin broke now like i onli have 27. 90 wif me now thats all i got no more then that hahahah so i have to go baby sit today to get more money hahahaha den by the ned of the day ill have lets see 51.90 hmm not bad and i haveta work tomoro too and the day after tomoronut that all iwork no more than that.... hmmm...btw guysimwaggin english class now why???
because the teacher like ask me to do a speech and i was like fck hell no i am doin that so intead of goint o class i decided to wag it lol but i know u guys cannot wag class in malaysia so dun wagg class lol!!!! hahaha do it in uni they dun give a fuck but must past the end of ur yr test ahahahalol thats about my weekend ....

man i realli miss malaysia !!!im comin homw in bout 33 ndays time so i hope ths 33 dayswill past realli quickly!!! den we all can go parrty lol!!!!

SHOUT OUTS TIME!!!!
ji min: ohh dun worri too much itll be all sweet ( u know wat im talkin bout)
maddie : havina great time in singapore?? dun forget i wan prezzies hahaha lol
clare: ok now u r not missin and how is ur relatiopnship wif ur bf still goin strong?
karin: ur house in beijing very nice ah!!! i was a house like that!!!
sonia:hows life man haven been talkin to u for a while !!! read ur blog but guesss wat guys are DICKS so forget them.
naina: man i can never read ur blog cause it always get jam wen i go to ur blog!!! man WHY cant i read ur blog!!!!?????
ellie: hows gis goin man ?? hard hahahaha hows everyone there???
aruna : u realli disappeared where the hell are u???

ok thats about it . love u guys so much and miss u guys loads tooo!!!! dun forget me!!!! i still exist lol will see u guys soon lol MISS ME !!!

2006-09-07T10:35:00.000+12:45

ppl under the age of 16 stop rite here as there will be vulger wordsin this essay or wateva this is.... that means u too sonia .... hahahhaa lol....

im living a fuckin sad life in new zealand i am so fuckin sad my likfe fuckin sucks and i fuckin hate it. its like fucked up! man fuck ths shit u guys know that i wanna do art subjects in uni rite.... but fuck NOOOO my cuz here is like dun do art subjects its onli hard and time consuming SO WAT FUCK MAN IT WAT I WANNA DO SO WATIF ITS HARD AND TIME CONSUMIN!!!!! damn it .... so fuckin stress up because of this fuckin not imprortant shit !!! i mean it is important but still!!!! i just wanna fuckin get back to malaysia and enjoy ife !!!! i hate it here!!!! everything is just nt goin rite for me.

like on tuesday i fuckin got a warnin for my attendence hey fuck man there are more ppl who fuckin wagg class 2 or 3 times worst dan me and they dun go find them and find me wat the fuck!!!!

well stupid design teacher keep walkin around damn stupid la i have to minimize this stupid thing dunno how many time!!!! man my life sucksfuck that shit

ok ok now that was wat i wrote the other day forgot to post it ...

2006-08-31T09:41:00.000+12:45

yesterday wasnt like any other day i wagged class. normally wagging class would bring me to the libary if no other fren of mine wagged class wif me or if they wagged class wif me we r most probably in the city walkin around eatin or on the bus to a beach.

however, yesterday i did not go to school at all. hehe.... yesterday in the mornin i heard my cousin called the school to say that i have a tummy ache and herefore can not go to school. but obviously i did not have one ...hehe.. instead of goin to school, i went to hanmer spring field to pao wen quan. if u do no know wat that ia , it mean soak myself in a hot water bath like the ones in japan. hahaha it was a 2 and a half hour drive there. well after we pao wen quan we ate nd went home. wat a sad life goin some where for 2 and a haf hour and pao wen quan and eat and drive back 2 and a half hour. 5 hour wasted on drivin. well nvm that wen we got to leanne's house, m cousin's fren, my cousin let me drive home which is from hornby to town which is a 20 min drive. and hey i was drivin fine hhahahaha ... and the drivin age here is like 15. s young alersy can drive unlike malaysia u need to be at least 17 and some more they r goin to change the age limit to 21 !!! so good luck guy who ever who is not 17 yet. well actually can get my driver's licence in nz r malaysia dunno where to do it may be ill just do both hahaha ok....

i am now in design class, since the teacher is not here and is not goin to be here there is no teacher at all here. hahha that y i am bloggin now lol.... and i was late because i have to walk to school luckily the weather is not bad like an air con room hahaha but slightly colder... man to tell u the truth design class if fuckin borin nothin to do just stupidly design some bloody stupid idiotic logos and thats it which means i am so not goin to take design next yr. over my dead body!!!! man im so borin so ill just do some more shouts outs!!!

ppl : come and read my blog i am updatin it!!!

Ji min : dun worry ill go back asap!!
maddie: dun screw up!!! think think THINK!!!
clare: where r u ?? u seem to disappear!?!?
ellie: still at home ???? u should at least re bel a little!!!
karin: ur school is new and there are onli 25 ppl in yr 12 &13!?!?! r u serious i wanna go to that school!!!!
son: wat r u up to now???? hmmm.... i dunnno so TELL ME!!!
naina: heard u got a love bite that looks like a heart shape !?!?! how did kum do it???
aruna: where r u????

S.R: ive got u all some sweets and sweets and more sweets......lol^^

2006-08-27T23:35:00.000+12:45

yesterday night was fun was at home all along until round 6ish me and my cuz decided that its time to get ready for malaysian ball again i din really wanna go just for the sake of my cuz and i do not know any bod there cept my cuz and her frens !! we were late for the ball so 10 iof us went into the ball room all late and mde a big entrance btw everyone is eatin ad we were just plain hungry so we dun give a damn and quickly find our seats and sit down and eat !!! well the food is nice i mean everything is nice wen u r hungry lol...

after dinner. meand my cuz and julia, one of my cuz frens, went to the tea table to get some tea and coffee. we end up hoggin the table cause there were so many nice delicious choclate there yum yum!!! den the tea table start to get crowded we have no choice but to move which mean sNO MORE CHOCOLATE !!! sad~.~ den dessert came along !!! un jugde the size of it eventhough it may seem small but its fuckin fillin!!! after dessert there ws some uni speach and the president of lincon uni was so damn funny he was like : olff of fus [all of us] hahahahha just plain broken english hahahaha!! hilarious!!! after that we went out for a smoke and everyone started to pile outside as he ball finish and after party came.

went home and change clothes as i am underage my cuz lend me hrer id and i so do not look like her yet i got in!!! kiwi ppl think that w asian looks the sam hahhahaha loser!!!! as i was waitin infornt of the entrance of the club saw this guy who just came and not even one sec after he is in the club no alcohol he started dancin like mad i was like wtf so high without even drinkin hahaha but he is kinda good lookin hahaha so me and my cuz and her frens went dancin and without noticin the time we got home at 3am!!

got home and saw ji min's message and called her talked for bout and hour and halfden cuz came back wif her bf and they were fuckin drunk keep talkin shit and the funny thing is her bf kinda DITCH her for the cat hahahahaha.... so funnywell i went to sleep about at 5 30 am that about it!!!

2006-08-25T11:39:00.000+12:45

hey guys wasssup seems like i will be updatin my blog every now and den cause school and z is borin not as fun as malaysia !!!!! plus i skipped english class this mornin hahahaha i hate it like hell ok!!!! hahahaha damn that english class!!!! hahaha let me do some shout outs!!!

ji min: hey man dun be sad will get back to malysia asap plus stop that bitchy look of urs in school i know u dun do it purposely but it easier to gget frens if u put on a smile:)

clare: why r u in so many affairs ah mom!?!?!

maddie : guys are all dicks lol

son: havin a great time in help???

karin: update ur blog!!!!

aruna : where r u man???? disappeared???

naina : ill keep my promise and havin a great time in help wif son???

ellie : no so innocent i see !!!

hey gtg now got art history bb
take care love u guys

ok im back now stupid art history class u know wat happen !!!
i was askin te teacher if i need to do the practice test next week because im not doin any exam this yr den he say no need i was like yeh man!!! den he ask me am i doin art history next yr im like yeh and he was like may be u should come and do one of the questions since youve already studied american pop art!!!! and i was like FUCK!@!!!!!! damn i have exam question next week T.T
man now is lunch break gonna have borion math next!!!! i mean i already studies the things they teach damn it@!!!!!
luckily my fren found a rental shop for chinese movie hahahahaha im gonna go there after schooll yehehhhhhh !!!!!! man today is quite bortin but still hmmm..... lol

btw ppl in taylors/help wen does ur exam starts and ends den we can go party after ur exams lol and i probably will be comin back on nov the 20 or may be earlier lol but not later hahahaha man i really miss u guys so miss me too lol^^

nicole: heres ur shout out !!! lol jkin umm... good lucj drivin *ilegally* hehe

2006-08-24T09:42:00.000+12:45

hey guys !!!! finally i am updatin my blog rite!!!! well guess why ????
hmmmm.... because im in desig class freakin borin nothin to do so i am here to update my blog!!!!! hahahaha how sad can my life be !!!! u guys i really really really FREAKIN MISS YOU!!!!! u know if i have a change to go back in time i would stay in malaysia and not make the decision to come here!!!!! i really miss you guys I LOVE YOU GUYS TOOOO !!!!!! hahahahaha man u ppl take care of urself dun get sick or stress or wateva !!! cause ill be really worried half way orund the world lol hehe lets see guess wat i did yesterday hmmmm.... basically i skipped art history class a fuckin 2 hou class and went to city and sumner a beach for fun hahahahaha see hpw sad life here can be!!!!!!! hahahahahaa hmmm from now on im goin to update my blog so yeh CHECK OUT MY BLOG GUYS!!!! love ya miss ya take care miss me lol -Caryn-

2006-07-05T14:24:00.000+12:45

hey guyss I'M BACK!!!! guess wat yesterday wen i came home, i din went home instead i went straight to one u to meet son karin clare and maddie hahahahhaah...... such a crazy thing to do.... and i was so out that i got updated by them hahahahah....

ji min: I MISS U!!!! get ur ass back here!!!
ellie: i cant believe u r cheatin on me wif rui yang!!!!!
maddie: Ditchin me now la huh!?!?! hahahaha....
clare: cannot go out every day??? noooooooo!!!!!
son: callin me a bitch!!!!!!...... lol
naina: just keep correctin MY english lol
karin: goin to UK cannot afford??? COME NEWZEALAND!!!!
aruna: where have u been????

hahaha so i heard about camp ... not successful???? hahaha den now got lots of ppl can play wif me hehehehehe..... lol neways guys i permed my hair!!!!! hahahaha and i love it... lol lets go sing k ok?!?!?!? oh and melbourne was like melbored the only thing i can do was shop in china town for cheap stuff hahahah .... and sry guys i left ur chocolate wif my bro.... but nop worries ill get some more in new zealand!

and since new zealand is winter i guess bikinis are chaep so ji min im buyin u a bikini for ur birthday and dun for get ur banana straw milk!!!! How many did u want ?? A 100 woahhhh!!!!! hahahaha okok guys just wriote down a list of things u wan and if i have that much money ill buy it lol!!!! hahahaha wat to write now hmmm.....

i guess thats all for today.... HAPPY HOLIDYS PPL!!!!!

2006-05-17T01:15:00.000+12:45

Stupid exams!!!!! i have 7 more exams to go!!! tmr i have literature!!! im gonna fail ppl!!! okok neways haha this week have been crazy!! i know like exams is near but i just dun wanna study and get good result wat the hell is wrong wif me!!!

hahahaha i will survive la!!!
oh and btw me and clare and karin got like sticker photos!!
and for once karin got a cute pose lol^^!!!check it out!!seee told u karin got sam soon pose lol^^
and keep rockin ppl hahahaha these days i just like the rock on style but of course not too rock on lol hahaha ^^ will upload more pictures nex time lol
WISH ME LUCK ON MY EXAM!!!!

oh and btw!!! i got another ear pierced!!!! now i have 7 which is my lucky number se7en yah~~~~~~~~!!!!! LOL
i know u all think i am crazy but thats gonna be my last one cause i was 7 of them onli lol^^
btw i lost my phone NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! AND my mom not gettin me new one ahhhhhhhhh im goin to die die DIE,,,,,

2006-05-09T02:50:00.000+12:45

hi ppl its me again hahahaha... okok i admit i am a bit hyper today and guess wat,,,, "at first i was afraid i was petrified.....I WILL SURVIVE~~~" hahahaha no one can stop me from singing that song today hahahahhahahaha ^^ lol neways today i woke up at like 11 went on9 no one there,hmmm den i called frens and guess wat !!! they r in bestari hahahaha den i walk there ... and blar blar blar okok [stop it caryn u r FREAKIN BORING] {boring!!! aint u suppose to write those stuff in ur blog???} [NO!!!! get a life!!!] {hmmm u sound like ji min!!!}

okok next topic!! sumthing more interesting!!! let's see...
hmmmxxxxx oh no my life is sooo sad!!!!!
[hey u fool no one goes around telling that their life is sad!!!]
{REALLY!!! NO!! LIKE JI MIN SAY IM A SAD ASS}
hahahahaha well;;; ummmmmm wat to say okok i know
(stupid conscience!!!interupe me)

neways i fink i did sumfing really wrong... sorry guys if i said things that r not true or sumfin dat upset u!!!
but wateva it is sorry!!

ohh and i onli have lets see... 9 exams left omg im gonna fail!!! i have to passs passs pass!!!!! SCIENCE MATH ENGLISH!!! I HAVE TO PASS IT!!! PASSSSSSSSSSS
"AT FIRST I WAS AFRAID I WAS PETRIFIED....I WILL SURVIVE"
^^ LOL ^^

OMG TVFSQ IS COMIN TO MALAYSIA SON WE HAVE TO GO WATCH IT !!!

-Caryn 8/5/06-

P.S:"I WILL SURVIE!!!!!" HAHAHAH IM HYPER LOL!!!

2006-05-01T02:57:00.000+12:45

ooo my first post here!! i guess u all already know me i just change blog neways for those who dont know me im caryn!! let see im 17 this year (old old old) ummm i like to surf the net play games and... lots more hahaha neways hi everyday drop by and read my blog i would most probably update itr once in a while haha not sure just make sure to come and read it...

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