its been a while since myy last entry.... well guess wat!?!?! IM BACK IN MALAYSIA YAY!!! yet not much things have change.... i know since ive been to new zealand i have change loads.... thinkin back to the past, i was realli different wen i was in yr 10 and now...... 2 years....... in 2 years time ive change from good girl not goin out much to a bad girl who goes out a lot and smokes and clubbss ..... to tell u the truth.... i kinda miss the old me....... but its too late to turn back......oh well ill justlook into the future for hope. hmmm..... so i have 2 and a half months left in malaysia!?!?! waqd ncan we do .... hahahah mold to death at home..... hahahaha go out!?!?!...... hahhahah better not go out too much .... my mom is like complainin bout how much i go out..... ai yo damn it la ..... i have to go for lunch or dinner at my grandma's at least 5 times a week... i mean wtf man i dun see my couu7sin who just got back from overseas go to my grandma house so often so why do i have to do it?!?!?! damn it ..... wastin my precious time i rather go watch tv LOL hehe...... any ways.... i miss newzealand LOADSSS ...... the reason is.... there r more freedom there ,..... no naggins from my mom 24/7 a day( even wen im sleepin in the mornin) T.T poor caryn!!! but nevwermind at least i get to sleep over and go out..... and wtf im gettin broke AHHHHHH not good not good must get a job or somethin!!!! damn y cant i be more thrifty..... T.T wait..... did i just as myself to be more thrifty!?!?! HAHAHAHAHAHA CARYN YAP U R NUTS!!!!!! lol have any one seen me thrifty before hahahahahahah..... fine fine i need money lol ...... okok back in newzealand i was oso always broke hahahahah damn it im like the poorest girl out of my frens CAUSE I SPEND SO MUCH MONEY damn it !!!!! have to control myself .... ok may be i should gamble wif myc ousins and win some money off them ... hmmmm..... good idea LOL i guess thats it for today... may be i should lock myself at home for a week and m,old and not spend money and just eat watch tv sleep and go toilet LOL OKOK..... ill think of somethin lol ..... hehe

20 People You Can Think Of Off The Top Of Your Head

1. my bro(eric)
2. my cuz(pei)
3. ji min
4. madeline
5. Clare
6. karin
7. ellie
8. sonia
9. naina
10. gerry
11. bonnie
12. echo
13. jing
14. xiao hai
15. isabella
16. aruna
17. nicole
18. joe
19. jess
20. cassie

* order of names do not reflect the level of importance !! *

1. How did you meet 13?
(jing) At school,in new zealand through gerry

2. What would you do if you never met 5?
(Clare) omg... r u serious!?!? deni would not exsit she my mom!!! hahahah

3. What do you honestly think of 10?
(gerry) gerry!??!?! umm he is funny and to me he is like one of my girl friends.

4. If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need them to know?
(my bro) ur a great bro i wont forget u.. ur the best bro i ever had love u loads

5. Would 3 and 17 make a lovely couple?
(ji min $nicole) HAHAHA thats so funny... NO!

6. Do you know any of 4's family members?
(maddie) her dad her mom and her sister ashley.

7. What would you do if 2 just professed their undying love for u?
(my cuz) r u serious shes like my cuz plus we r girls ill tell her hey man r u seriosu we r not lesbos rite u have a BF! ahahahahah

8. What language does 19 speak?
(Jess) English.

9. Who is 8 going out with?
(Son) No one... i fink...

10. When was the last time you talked to 18?
(Joe) umm.. last somethin cant rmb... hehe

11. What's number 9's favorite band?
(Naina) she likes nigger shit all those hip hop music... is that rite naina!?!?1

12. Does 2 have any siblings?
(my cuz) yes one younger bro who is taller den me!!!! i wanna be tall too!!!

13. Would you ever date 6?
(Karin) I so would shes so blur if u cheat on her she wont know hahzahahahah... jkin!!! of course shes a great gal

14. Would you ever date 7?
(ellie) i s would shes o pretty hey model figure man!!!

15. Is 15 single?
(Isabella) she so is singl ... to tell u the truth it is very hard forher to find a man as she is agressive and cheesy...its true!!!

16. What is 3's middle name?
(Ji min) she dont have a middle name.

17. Wheres 20?
(Cassie) At home sleepin in her bed!?!

18. What is 5's biggest wish?
(Clare) to get a damn handsome and rich bf???

19. Would 14 and 20 make a good couple?
(Cassie &xiao hai) no fuckin way xia hai is like 14 and cassie is like wat 22 over!?!?!?!

20. What school does 16 go to?
(Aruna) some school in england hahahaha... dunno the name...

21. What school does 17 go to?
(Nicole) taylor's college CPU

22. Where does 9 live?
(Naina) Bangsar... where else lol...

23. Would you make out with number 12?
(Echo) NO way ... shes like my first girl friends in nz!!!

24. Are number 5 and number 16 best friends?
(Clare & Aruna) hell yeh we r all in SR one nig group of best frens

25. What is the coolest thing about 3?
(Ji min) her personality i guess... straight and forward ... may eb hot and sexy too accordin to guys hahahahah

26. Whats your best memory of 1?
(My bro) hahah funny i practically live my whole life iwif him the best memory i got is she leavin a bruse on my leg thinkin it was a joke and that im pretendin that i got hit!btw ko ko the bruse still exsit... lol

27. What is 13's mom's name?
(Jing) His mom;s name i have no idea...

28. Name 9's siblings in order by age.
(Naina) ummm... 2 older bro and one younger one but im sry i frgot their name hahahah sry naina...

29.What is 8's last name?
(Sonis) Heng

30. What grade is 7 in?
(Ellie) sixth form yr 12

31. Would u ever spend the night at 11's house?
(Bonnie) DUHHH she is like so funny i would lobve to spend a nite at her house...

ok its like 7.04 in the mornin now gtg sleep haven been slepin nites pp love u guys miss u guys be back in 12 days time... xoxoxoxox

hey guys im ok now... dun worry man things r great now between me and my cuz. was realli angry wif her the ither day but things r goin great now as she talk things out wif me... so dun worri.
welll im in my holidays now hahahaha so fuckin borin plus we kept goin out and im kinda broke now hahahahaa... but we watc some movies dunno if its out in malaysia but we watch stormbreaker, stick it. step up , garfield 2, john tucker must die, lady in the water, DOA, and more (i forgot)hahahaha man i must tell u ppl here in nz wen they watch movie they r realli weird. for instance, back in malaysia wen a funny scene come up everyone will crack up but here wen i go watch movie wif my frensor cuz, we r the onli ones who crack up and the whole cinema will be like all quiet and we r the onli one who crack up hahahahah which is super weird... hahahahahha weird arses kiwi must be cold blooded or something ... hahahahhaha..

well if those movies are not out yet in malaysia i tell u i wont mind watchin again wif u guys cause we r frens mah... love u guys so much and miss u guys so much tooo....

talkin about frens i have this girlfren call isabella and im fuckin scared of her she id fuckin cheesy and for me she id the most cheesiest preson i ever met in my whole life wtf man... its like we me and my frens go out we kinda like do the arm to arm thing rite which is completely normal but she must go stick her hands in my jacket's pocket which realli freaks me out. and out of the bloom she will just grab one of our hans and start playin aand that realli FUCKIN FREAKS ME OUT VEN MORE!!!!!!!!! sometimes i even wonder if shes a lesbian or somethin. man and wenever we go sing k she ll just hog on to the mic and keep pushinher songs up spo she can sing first and i have to like wait 1.30 hrs to sing my song and believe me she cant sing. imagine how a dolphine squeekzzz thats how she sing... terrible .. hahah enough bout her now i gotta get off now my cuz jsut came home and need to do her assignment ... btw its like 5 hrs diff now cause of daylight savin.

welll i miss u guys and love u guys so much and ill be back in 13 days..

take care love ya <3 xoxoxoxox <3