i dunno why... but i feel like lockin myself in my room. I dun wanna know wats goin on out there... i dun wanna think bout anything... i dun wanna care anymore... life's complicated... life's feeled wif happynesss...life's feeled wif lies... i just wanna be alone... not think bout the outside world... not talkin to anyone... not doin anything... and onli lyin on my bed starin at the ceiling high above...

sometimes i just wanna kill myself.. even ask y i was born into this world... if i have not been born den everything i feel will just go away...yet i wont meet my parents, brother, cousins, and friends... i realli dunno wat i can do wif my life... i hate myself for being who i am... sometimes i just wish that i can go back in time and just be the girl i used to be... impossible... impossible... impossible... what can i do wif my life... i've been searchin for the answer for a long time... but im still lost...

maybe it's time to stop... just stop... stop for a while and think...

sometimes i feel like i am a puppet being controled by someone else... doing things that i hate... stop stop stop... i just wanna stop rite here at this moment... but wat can i do... i hate my life...